As each day goes by

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Is it really so hard?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Maybe they're right?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, What to do?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Can this be true?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Is time the best healer?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, When will things change?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Can I go on?

As each day goes by...
I sit back and think, Maybe I should at least try?

As each day goes by...
They always say,
"There's nothing more to do,
You have to take life and trouble"
As each day goes by............As each day goes by...........

Loneliness...

As I lay here in my dark, and lonely room,
filled with sadness , and with gloom.
I search for your voice, but it's not there.
I reach to touch you, but touch only air.
In my heart is a loneliness that I alone must bear.
I feel all around me there is no one who really cares.
So, forgive me if I must cry out
"Is This What Life Is All About?"
to feel so empty, and cast out.
Where are the ones who said they cared!
Where are the ones who said they would always be there!
So, as I lay here in my dark, and lonely room ,
filled with sadness, and with gloom.
Forgive me if I must cry out,
"Is This What Life Is All About?"

In One Instant...

In one instant,One's life changes.
In one instant,One's heart rearranges...

In one instant,One must face the truth.
In one instant,Life is more then just youth...

In one instant,Time stands still.
In one instant,One must swallow the bitter pill...

In one instant,Ones love is past.
In one instant,There's nothing left to last...

In one instant,There's nothing to say.
In one instant,everything goes away...

In one instant,Its all over and done.
In one instant,You are not the one...

In one instant,It's all loss and no gain.
In one instant,There's nothing..but PAIN...

Why Do I ??

Why do I smile at the sound of your voice?
Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice?
Why do I miss that electric touch?
Why do I like to have you around so much?

Why do I melt at that flying kiss?
Why do I feel like I could live forever like this?
Why do I put my heart in your hands?
Why do I answer all your demands?

Why do I tell you leaving me is not your wrong?
Why do I let you know with out you I'm not strong?
Why do I suffer even though I know it's not right?
Why do I give up even without putting up a fight?

Why do I care about you even though you hurt me?
Why do I turn my head from what's the reality?
Why do I try to hide from what is true?
Why do I still miss you?

Insomnia...

A poem by Charles Shultz donno the name of the poem so have named it my way :p amazing one so thot of putting it here.


Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask,
Where have I gone wrong?
Then a voice says to me,
This is going to take more than one night.

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask,
Is life a multiple choice test or is it a true or false test?
Then a voice comes out of the dark, and says:
We hate to tell you this, but life is a thousand word essay.

Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask,
Why me?
And the voice says,
'Nothing personal your name just happened to come up.

Sometimes I lie awake at night in bed and I ask,
Is it all worth it? And then a voice says, 'Who are you talking to?' And another voice says,
You mean: to whom are you talking?
And I say, 'No wonder I lie awake at night.'

Quilt...

Can you see me? Have you even tried?
No, you looked right through me...
My pain I wear, like a patchwork quilt...
Surely you saw me, in these multi colors...
Pain, regret, sorrow, rejection...
Each square is a tribute of its own to my stupidity...
See the threads? I bet you can...
They are my tears....
connecting one painful memory to another...
You carry the tool to take this quilt apart...
Can you, would you, free me?
Free me from this pain i wear...
Thats all i want i swear...

Hide to Cry

I hide to cry
because I have no where to call my own
and "happily ever after" is a land too far away,
just after once upon a time; just this side of the rainbow
and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because I know I will never get it
and dreams don't really come true
its just all make believe stuff
and it really doesn't matter

I hide to cry
because my weakness brings my tears
and I have no one to hold me close
no one here who loves me
and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because no one really cares anyway
and is this pain even real
it really doesn't matter
and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because no one validates my pain
and no one really cares
so why should I
and it really doesn't matter anyway

Eyes...

They say eyes tell everthing...do they really do...if so then why did she leave me??..wondering........

You see the pain that lies in my eyes,
But, alas, my eyes are dry,
I won't cry.
No, I won't cry.

You see the anger that burns from my gaze,
The madness that sets my eyes ablaze,
I won't cry.
No, I won't cry.

You see the fear that closes my eyes,
The smile I wear is nothing but a disguise,
I won't cry.
No, I won't cry.

You see the hope that is finally dead,
I cannot trust for my heart has been bled,
I won't cry.
No, I won't cry.

You see the love that lies within,
But I shall never love again,
I won't cry.
No, I won't cry.

You see death's hand that has glazed my eyes,
No one saw me die inside,
They won't cry.
No, they won't cry.

No one will...no one cares...no one did and will no one will ever care...

Questions??

How many steps will it take to walk a mile?
How many seconds will it take to wait a while?
How many battles do I need to win?
How many Gods do I need, to forgive my sin?

How many times must I betray my faith?
How many times can I control my hate?
When do I say that justice isn't fair??
How can I endure the burden that I bear?

Where is the youth who wud dare?
Where can I find the people who really care?
Where can I find the road to success?
Is it in the north, south, east, or west?

Where can I find true love?
That God had gave from above?
How many struggles do I need to make it through?
When do I say that a statement is false or true?

How can I forgive others?
When they have left me in tears?
Can you give help to those people in need?
After they have dropped you and left you to bleed?

Who are the people that I can trust?
In this world, to fight is a must.
The world will continue to evolve,
But these questions remain unsolved.........

Moving On

We had been together for many a year,
Now, all I could feel was fear.
I gave all that I could give,
It just wasn't the way she wanted to live.

She left without a backward glance,
Not even giving my love a chance.
I often wonder what I could have done,
To keep her from going on the run.

Now I am all alone,
With nothing to call my own.
I can barely make myself eat,
Wondering if my life will ever again be complete.

Now I am moving along,
Building my courage, and becoming strong.
Time will heel my broken pride,
Toward the sunset my heart will glide.

Did you see me?

Last Night i had a dream of seeing her at a signal...just get one or two glimpses of her before the signal turned green and she went off my screen.


I saw you last night
With him in your car.

Did you see me?
I wonder
Did you see?

As I stared into your car,
Your eyes fixed on him,
I prayed.

I prayed
God would make a switch
Replace him with me.

Did you see me?
I wonder,
Did you see?

I knew, though,
That God
Would not answer that prayer.

Did you see me?
I wonder
Did you see?

As the light turned green
I took another look;
I laughed uneasily.

I wished again
For God to make a switch;
To replace him with me.

Did you see me?
I wonder
Did you see?

I wished you would look at me
The way you looked at him;
I wished you still loved me.

Did you see me?
I wonder
Did you see?

I know now
I guess I've always known;
It's all over.

I'll never feel your love;
I'll never feel your touch;
I'll never hold you in my arms
The way I want to so much.

So, again I wonder
As I sit there all alone,

Did you see me?
I wonder
Did you see?

My Dilemma.....

As I sit here on the ground
With my head spinning round and round
Holding on, closing my eyes
Letting go of my silent cries
Tears fall down my cheek
Energy draining I’m so weak
Hidden beneath the disguise
Hoping no one will see through these lies
Reaching out but no ones there
Holding back because no one will care
Lie after lie, day after day
What can I do to make it all go away?
Can’t even tell them what I’m really thinking
Can’t even tell them why my heart is sinking
I can’t bring myself to tell them all
Why I struggle and fall
Can’t bring myself to say
I need help, please make it go away
Can’t tell them how I really feel
Can’t tell them anything that’s real
Holding back, to scared of what they’ll say
Will it be ok, or will they send me away
Lie after lie, another day of having to hide
Burying this pain deep inside
Another day comes and goes
Hiding this secret that no one knows

Hearts Demise

Lightning flashes up in the skies
The raindrops fall as Mr Cupid cries
He made a match that was unwise
Not watching where his arrow flies

Didn't know a problem would arise
Couldn't foresee my hearts demise
He meant well as he always tries
but even he seems to have his lows and highs

On him, my heart no longer relies
The time has come to cut the ties
As too many tears have dropped from my eyes
He must be stopped before my heart dies

This plan of his, he must revise
As my heart has said it's last goodbyes
Out of the ashes I will rise
As for Mr Cupid, I have come to despise

Why??

Why do I love you
With all my heart?
Why did I fall for you
From the start?

Why do you cause me
So much pain?
Why do you stick to my heart
Like a stain?

Why couldn't I see
You weren't gonna stay?
Why did I believe
You were gonna take the pain away?

Why did you play my heart
Like a game?
Why couldn't you ever
Feel the same?

Why do I sit
In my room all alone?
Why do I pray
You would call my phone?

Why did you end it
When i wasn't here?
Why didn't it bother you
When you made my eyes tear?

Why cant I stop thinking of you,
Why can't I say goodbye
Why do I still get jealous
When I see you with the other guy?

Why do you come back in my life
As soon as I'm letting go?
Why do I still get butterflies
When you just say hello?

Why can't I forget about you
And put you in the past?
Why does a part of me still believe
That me and you were made to last?

Unspoken Words

I don't understand,
How can you do this to me?
How can you change your mind so quick,
And tell me it's not meant to be?

After all the things you said,
And after all the things we did.
Your going to throw it all away,
Who are you trying to kid?

I deserve some answers,
What did i do wrong?
How can our love be over,
After being together so long?

I got so many questions,
Coz now my heart is broken.
But there's nothing i can do.
So i'll leave these words unspoken.

Raindrops of the Heart

Forever lasting love , A dream we both dream...
Forever lasting us , Impossible it seems...

Drowning in my tears , Raindrops of the heart...
Embracing my fear ,Thought of us apart...

Shattered sweet soul , A million broken pieces...
Watching silently as you go , Missing the butterfly kisses...

Broken heart and memories , Now all I have left to cherish...
Foolish dreams that love last eternally , Pain that never completely vanish...

You taught me how to loathe , Now I live in a world so dim
Asked you who you love most , Cried when you said it was -him-

Last Goodbye

I still miss you...
But not like I did before.
The intense aching I felt,
Isn't there anymore.

I still whisper your name...
Not as often as I used to.
Now it may be once,
Before the day is through.

I still hear your voice...
Replaying in my mind.
But it's fading now,
Soon silence I will find.

I still long for you...
To feel your touch.
But it's not like before,
I don't dream it as much.

I still think about you...
And wonder how you are.
But my feelings have changed,
And they don't go as far.

I still feel you sometimes...
Maybe you're thinking of me?
Or maybe it's just a little memory,
Of how it used to be.

I still love you...
But it's just not as strong.
Because I'm letting you go now,
So we can both move on.

I still hear you say...
No one will love me like you do.
That's so hard to believe now,
After the hurt you put me through.

You still have a piece of my heart..
Because I always felt you here.
Now, I'm hoping and praying,
That, that too, will quickly disappear.

This will be my last goodbye..
I've nothing else to say.
Everything I felt for you,
Can now just fade away.....

I Loved You Too.

So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin,
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.

I still have feelings,
which haven't changed,
because when you left me
my life was re-arranged.

I used to cry
so many times a day,
but lately those tears
have been fading away.

I am hoping that
my brighter day soon will come,
and maybe, just maybe,
I'll find that special someone.

Yes, it's been hard,
but I'm getting back my life,
I've even managed
to put away the knife.

I will find someone
who's right for me,
who loves me
and lets me be all I can be.

Yet the thought of you and him,
is tearing me apart,
because you will always have a special place
in my broken heart.

Do I still love you?
Yes, I do,
but another part of me
is getting over you.

I never thought I would say this,
but I simply have to confess,
with each and every day that goes by,
I love you less and less.

I just wanted to be with you,
but now you're gone,
and the time has come
for me to move on.

You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do,
from the bottom of my heart,
I loved you too.

When My Love Said Goodbye

Life changed so much when my love said goodbye,
The days went faster as if tomorrow would be another happy day,
A happier day than it was today,
But it wasn't happy at all,
The nights seemed to stop passing by,
Like it didn't want to,
Leaving me a mass of unhappiness,
A mass of sorrow and memories,
Floating back and forth in the empty room.

I heard the birds singing in those sunny summer afternoon,
And for once brief second,
I thought they were welcoming back spring,
When it had already passed by,
For one wishful moment I thought they were singing,
For welcoming back my love,
But it was only a fantasy,
It was a perfect dream gone sad.

I wished that my love would come back to be happy with me again,
But how much happiness,
How much of my wishes would really become reality?
Maybe I was afraid of my own reality,
That was why all my wishes fail on me,
Maybe I was too afraid to find someone new,
And it would be happening all over again,
Maybe my wishes had all become reality long ago,
But I had been turning away from them.

Other than you

I’m feeling so fragile
My heart’s torn in two
Why can’t I love somebody
Other than you?

My problems would vanish
My heart would repair
And I would stop wishing
For you to be there

The tears that flow
Would cease to exist
And I’d stop dreaming
About the times which now a mist

I’d forget all those memories
And reasons I cried
Forget how you played me
Forget how you lied

But my heart is still broken
And you made it break
Shattered completely
More than I can take

I want to hate you
Make you suffer like me
But I love you too much
So I’m setting you free

Life would be easier
I’d make it through
If I loved somebody
Other than you

Set U Free

Our song is softly playing
alone again, i cry
i feel so very small
below this endless sky

i watched u smiling at him
the way you smiled at me
his hand inside of yours
just like mine used to be

You whisper in his ear
and give him love so fine
the sparkle in her eyes
just like it was in mine

but still i let u go
and yes it breaks my heart
to stand alone without you
it tears my world apart

i wish that i could hold you
just LOOK you in the face
but now another sweetheart
is standing in my place

Watching how u love him
and how he loves you too
its way too much to handle
to know i once had you...

Tears Either Way...

Whether I am with you
Or whether we are apart
There will always be two broken pieces
Of my fragile heart

I smile when I am with you
And no it is not fake
But when I go home is when I realize
That loving you is a mistake

You do not really care for me
And people tell me so
They always tell me you are his
I try to ignore it, as if I don’t know

But deep inside I know the truth
Yet, I pretend that I am fine
I cry my self to sleep
Wishing you were only mine

Still I do not understand
How in the world you can pretend
You are tearing me apart
My heart will never mend

Everyone tells me to leave and forget
Just to walk away
But that is even more painful
Than seeing you with him everyday

I wish I could just forget your face
But I am way too weak
Without you by my side
Life would be so bleak

The question now is to hang on or let go
Either way tears will form in my eyes
Should I just try to walk away from the one I love?
Or try to live with all the lies?

Shredded Memories

I miss the first word you ever said to me..
I miss the last word you said before you left me..

I miss the first smile that you've shown me..
I miss the last smile that I never got to see..

I miss the first hug that you gave me..
I miss the last hug that I asked you to pity me..

I miss the first touch on your lips..
I miss the last touch when you turned your back on me..

I miss the first kiss that you've fallen for me..
I miss the last kiss, which I wasn't the person you kissed..

I miss the first song you sang to me..
I miss the last song of my sympathy..

I miss the first letter that you've written for me..
I miss the last letter which you've never written for me..

I miss the first time you said you love me..
I miss the only time you ever said that to me..

I miss hugging you when I see you trembling..
I miss cuddling you when I see you sad and lonely..

I miss your voice calling me under that loving scene..
I miss our moment together before memories shredded into pieces..

I miss the way you made me alive and glee..
I miss the way you used to be..

I miss u ....

Why did you break my heart?

Why did you break my heart?
Why did we fall in love?
Why did you go away, away, away, away?

Dil mera churaaya kyoon
Jab yeh dil todna hi tha
Humse dil lagaaya kyoon
Humse munh modna hi tha

Dil mera churaaya kyoon
Jab yeh dil todna hi tha
Humse dil lagaaya kyoon
Humse munh modna hi tha

Why did you break my heart?
Why did we fall in love?
Why did you go away, away, away, away?

Ho, dil ko dhadakna tune sikhaaya
Dil ko tadapna tune sikhaaya
Aankhon mein aansu chhupe the kahin
Inko chhalakna tune sikhaaya

Seene mein basaaya kyoon
Dil se jab khelna hi tha
Humse dil lagaaya kyoon
Humse munh modna hi tha
Dil mera churaaya kyoon

Why did you break my heart?
Why did we fall in love?
Why did you go away, away, away, away?

Ho, milti thi nazrein jab bhi nazar se
Uthte the shole jaise jigar se
Saanson se nikla jaise dhuaan sa
Banta tha mujhse jeete na marte

Aag kyoon lagaayi jab
Bujhaaye dil chhodna hi tha
Humse dil lagaaya kyoon
Humse munh modna hi tha

Dil mera churaaya kyoon
Jab yeh dil todna hi tha
Humse dil lagaaya kyoon
Humse munh modna hi tha

Why did you break my heart?
Why did we fall in love?
Why did you go away, away, away?