My Dilemma.....

As I sit here on the ground
With my head spinning round and round
Holding on, closing my eyes
Letting go of my silent cries
Tears fall down my cheek
Energy draining I’m so weak
Hidden beneath the disguise
Hoping no one will see through these lies
Reaching out but no ones there
Holding back because no one will care
Lie after lie, day after day
What can I do to make it all go away?
Can’t even tell them what I’m really thinking
Can’t even tell them why my heart is sinking
I can’t bring myself to tell them all
Why I struggle and fall
Can’t bring myself to say
I need help, please make it go away
Can’t tell them how I really feel
Can’t tell them anything that’s real
Holding back, to scared of what they’ll say
Will it be ok, or will they send me away
Lie after lie, another day of having to hide
Burying this pain deep inside
Another day comes and goes
Hiding this secret that no one knows